Finding the Spirit
Christmas spirit that is. I still remember that I used to love Christmas very much. Not because of the presents, mind you. It was during that time of the year that I felt that peace really descended upon the earth. Sound like some childish dream, isn’t it?
The fact that the new year is coming also helped a bit, I guess. I like the idea of starting anew and leaving the past behind. How we are given a moment to reflect on our lives throughout the year. It is a feeling that I simply cannot find on any other holiday.
Although I am sad to admit that it has been quite some time since I last felt that feeling. Perhaps it is because life is demanding, or it could be that I couldn’t find the reason anymore. I even thought once that perhaps I am getting callous, living in a world like this.
It was not a very pleasant thought, and I am a little bit worried and afraid at the same time, thinking about the possibilities that the feeling might never come to me again. Not even after a long journey down life’s winding pathway, a really scary thought.
But, thank God I think I don’t really have to worry about it anymore. Finally I am able to feel the spirit of Christmas once more, when I least expected it. Perhaps it is because the trials and tribulations that I have experienced the whole year, enable me to change my outlook of life in general.
I can feel it when I saw the Christmas tree with its blinking and colorful light, and perhaps even more when I do exactly like I used to do when I was just a little kid. Turn off the light and pray for peace, for everyone in this world who needs it the most. Let the blinking lights of the Christmas Tree sway me to sleep until morning comes. Merry Christmas.
